My bitter-sweet love, how beautiful you are. You pushed me to the breach beyond my capacity to love, and broke me, yes Darling, it broke me into shades of black and blue, pieces of my life missing. Whole chunks of time and space where memories should have filled now lay empty and I cannot retrace. It will remain unsettled because it is beyond waste. That waste in time that should have been spent and spoiled with your infectious laughter, and sex and all kinds of shenanigans. What a fantastic trickster you are, to have led me into your world where Jesters entertain. Foolish to the notion that the source of a steady commitment would be found, only to find myself awake in a nightmare.